Hobby the Lobby or Lobby for Hobby?

I read an article on CNN today about Hobby Lobby facing fines for going against Obamacare.  Well, ok, I get it...we all get fined when we don't follow the laws so that didn't really bother me.  This is a difficult topic for me to cover because emotionally it's a tough one.  My mother was a type I diabetic.  She was advised not to have my sister and I.  In fact during her pregnancies it was suggested that she abort.  This is a case where the mother's life was definitely in danger and quite honestly I am still just amazed that she went through with the pregnancies.  As a result of the pressures from pregnancy she developed complications that later led to her early death at age 32.  For the longest time I was a Pro-Life voice that had no problem with people standing on the side of the road holding a sign about saving babies kind of person.  That was me.  I felt like I owed it to my mother on a personal level to be that person. The judgemental one when it came to that.  Well, life lessons change us sometimes. I'm still about saving babies but my judgemental attitude about it has been way more tamed now than what it used to be.  I remember working for a catholic based hospital after I had my son Isaac. I was supposed to have had my tubes tied after he was born but because he was a preemie the doctor advised against the procedure....so, yes...we had Bryant 5 years later.  Tubes were tied then.  Ok, back to my point.  After I had Isaac I was in no way interested in having another child because the whole ordeal scared me so much. My lung collapsed etc., I was in ICU, I basically almost died.  When it came time to get on birth control pills my insurance denied me the coverage. I needed a special brand due to some of the other benefits it offered so it was a pricey prescription for a middle class income family.  I remember feeling angry and outraged that the nuns wouldn't agree to pay for my birth control.  Did they not understand that pregnancy wasn't necessarily a good thing for everyone? They were on the board of a hospital that takes care of people....and I guarantee not everyone who walked in that hospital was there for illnesses that couldn't have otherwise been prevented had they not been "sinless."  So, why was I being punished I thought? I'm a married woman just trying to be affordably responsible.  Well, I forked out the monthly expense begrudgingly and carried on.  Did this change the fact that I was pro-life? No.  Then later...the big whammy...consider having to make the choice about disconnecting life support?  Well, guess what?  I had to make that choice for my Dad and it was the most difficult and most painful decision I have ever made in my entire life.  I live with the pain of that decision always...not because I feel like I made the wrong one but no human should ever have to be put in that position to do that.  It took a painful amount of love to do it.  So, imagine my disgust and sadness when I realize that the Pro-Life Movement doesn't support  those kind of decisions.  I felt judged and questioned my own beliefs.  It is not something someone wants to have to carry a burden of to begin with. While, personally, it is my opinion that abortions shouldn't ever be used as an alternative to birth control I feel that the Pro-life movements views on end of life decisions has clouded the topic even more.  Can you be pro-life with grace?  I think so.  I believe you can be. The bottom line is everyone doesn't walk in the same shoes.  So, Hobby Lobby doesn't want to pay for abortion inducing drugs? Fine...it's a conscience thing. I get it.  I'm not going to quit shopping at places that choose not to go against Obamacare's mandates just like I'll probably continue going to Hobby Lobby for insane reasons like I feel like being crafty that day. Whatever! I'm not crafty for the record...but just in case.  Here's how I feel though...they have the right to fight for what they believe in.  Everyone does. If they don't want to carry a burden that would in some way make them feel responsible for ending the life of another human being then I respect that.  That burden can be too difficult of a burden to bear.  There are far more other companies that are not going against the Obamacare mandates when it comes to this issue.  I also worked for other companies that did pay for birth control. What are we trying to prove if we mandate Hobby Lobby to go against its beliefs? Their rights should be just as protected as those making the decision to abort.  I hate that anyone has to make decisions about abortions or life support.  The thought of abortions makes me very sad but so does disconnecting life support.  I'll be anxious to see how the case ends up with Hobby Lobby.  Just throwing out some food for thought.